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you're the sole reason i keep believing.

Sat, 10 Oct 2009 06:08:08 GMT

i finally had the time to add photos =)

it's better not to want forever;
forever never lasts,
but if you take each day
at a time,
maybe, just maybe
it will be the closest thing you'll have to
forever

life's full of opportunities for friendship,
the only thing that determines its
rise or fall
is how well you choose to maintain it

throw your arms up in the air, scream until your lungs burst. here's to another adrenalish rushing kicking in.

one of the greatest moments in a musician's life is when he or she hears the crowd sing their own lyrics back to him or her.

i thought i'd never get over you,
but when i did,
it felt so liberating.
if i hadn't gotten over you,
i wouldn't have fallen
for some one so much better.

she wished,
and prayed every night
for her prince charming to come.

that girl's a genius.

Sun, 27 Sep 2009 05:57:33 GMT

another one :)

when thousands of people are suffering, and you know you can help any way you can, then help because the smallest deed makes the biggest difference.

someone once told me, "True love is when you know pain is a constant, but you still hold on tight, never letting go or giving up." I believe that person with all my heart.

The beauty of imperfections is that there's always room for improvement.

I know you're a thousand miles away, but I'm hoping that some how I can still take your breath away.

you've always been a mystery.

two is better than one.

Tue, 22 Sep 2009 11:43:45 GMT

it's about time! :>

you got them talking that's for sure, but are you happy now?

Behind all the hazy and grunged-up lies is where you'll find the truth.

Shake off the dust, and get all your facts straight.

I don't want to blend in anymore. I want to shine, and make a difference.

sometimes all we need is an emotional slap in the face to get us back on track.

so you're beaten down, and broken up. you're feeling like there's no way back up, but i assure you, there's always a light at the end of that gloomy, dingy tunnel.

ignorance is your new best friend.

Fri, 14 Aug 2009 13:05:09 GMT

WOOHOO AN UPDATEEE! :>

it feels liberating to stand up for one's self.

in spite of all the things you put me through when it's me who hurts you, why do i still feel guilty?

why is it that depression triggers the loveliest creations?

how can you expect these things from me, when you're so reclusive? How can I help you, if you don't let me in?

I wish I could make you understand my perspective of the situation

i will stand outside, and wait for you to come find me.

Fri, 07 Aug 2009 11:30:15 GMT

whoot another update! :>

People wonder why I act this way;
Maybe I can sum it up for you:
I'm afraid of getting hurt again,
but then again,
who isn't?

I'm not a big fan of second chances.
Want to know why?
You're giving Pain another chance.
Who's to tell he/she won't hurt you again
if he/she has already done so in the past?

Free from your commensalism chains,
I've learned to love and stick through the pain.

You say 'little girl, put some sense into your mind.'
I don't talk back, but secretly whisper,
'so you call sense forgetting about the past, and living like nothing has happened?'

I've forgiven you,
but I can't forget.

forget about the sunshine when it's gone.

Thu, 16 Jul 2009 09:45:09 GMT

me: GUESS WHAT??
you: an update?
me: YEAH! =))

okay, sorry I'm just hyper! i ate too much sweets today :P

we used to be best friends,
but time was an enemy creeping into our memories.
what's left of us now?
you're no stranger that's for sure,
but is it better that we're that state in between?
Not a best friend, nor a stranger;
tell me what's left of us now?

To succumb to jealousy is a step to self-destruction.

I can't believe I'm actually saying this, but: I'm finally over you.

I'm no fool for believing in love:
Love makes the heart burn with passion;
it devours our souls with an unfathomable mystery,
and when heart-aches come by,
we learn only to move forward by
getting back up, and realizing that
this pain
only makes
us stronger.

i used to be love drunk, but now i'm hung over.

Tue, 07 Jul 2009 10:51:10 GMT

finally, an update! :) comments are highly appreciated! :D

when i least expect you to move me;
you create this impact I cannot fully describe:
you make my insides tingle with delight

we haven't spoken in so long, so why i am so surprised that you've moved on?

maybe one day i'll muster up the courage to say all these things I feel, but for now they're going to stay locked up in a corner far in my mind.

i want you to know me so bad, but i'm such a sucker for awkward phrases & hanging silences.

this line is so cliche, I know, but really, there is no other way to say this, but, I miss you.

I miss you so bad I feel my heart is going to self-destruct, that my breathing will only get faster, and faster. Tell me, when will this feeling stop?

my imagination mixed with oblivion can get the best of me.

the closest thing to me at heart is the furthest thing for me to touch

Fri, 29 May 2009 10:43:00 GMT

another update, yo! :))
inspiration has struck me once again, so here are the quotes!

The sky is looking so gray,

but there's still reason to smile:

the stars are looking down on us,

twinkling, glowing, grinning

their light upon us.

Baby, Vegas ain't so sweet.

i'm not the type of girl

who gets jealous over

those who have countless suitors;

i just want to find

that one guy

who'll stick by me,

I’ll never have to

doubt his loyalty.

Over heartaches & sorrows,

I've come to realize

I never really loved you;

I just loved the idea

of you loving me.

It was an illusion

my mind played on me,

tangling, twisting

these memories.

I try to maneuver

these feelings for you;

but everywhere I go

is a dead-end;

a blinking light saying:

YOU'VE GOT TO MOVE ON.

How do you know?

How do you know if he’s a keeper?

Most boys come and go,

But there will be one who’ll be there

Longer than you’d expect.

Friendships are built, then burnt,

But there are those

You are willing to break grammar rules for,

Those you who call your best-est friends

Because they’re worth that extended suffix

It’s time to abolish false notions,

And stick to what we know.

Say adios to negative thoughts,

And hola to positive ones.

Life’s too short for regrets,

So don’t create a situation glued with remorse.

Be content with life.

It’s definitely worth living.

There can be so much meaning to a single phrase;

Words can alter what we feel

In ways unfathomable to comprehend.

M.I.A.

Mon, 18 May 2009 13:18:56 GMT

yes, i have been missing in on a lot of xanga action :)) it's been a busy summer & i've been on a long writer's block, but i'm back now! :)

sometimes i still feel like the odd one out

things don't always go the way you want them to, but what can you do? that's life.

paint me with glitter & i'll shine just for you

it's silly how little things can cause so much pain

even though i'm surrounded by many faces, i can't doubt that cold chill that overcomes me when i feel alone

i don't wish that things could be different; i just wish they were better

keep your head up, the colors are BEAUTIFUL.

Sun, 22 Mar 2009 09:58:34 GMT

i owe you guys an update. it's definitely been a while.

p.s. i wrote my 100th quote in this post! BOOYAH! one hundred! =D
*does happyyyy dance*

sometimes i wish we were kids again
the simplest of things would make us smile;
and we didn't have to worry about the future
because all we had was now

the summer breeze is calling out to us;
it's that time to turn the keys and set the ignition;
drive wherever the road may take us

I'm wondering...
if, maybe this time
you'd give me,
you'd give us
another chance

the heat wave is unbearable;
boy, your mixed signals only make this more intolerable.

sometimes, we just need other people to believe in us before we believe in ourselves